Back in the Saddle

So I made a decision to go back into working for my church's multimedia ministry. I was hoping things had changed, but...it was more of some of the things that frustrated me before. All I ever wanted to do was operate the robotic camera, but the head of the ministry insists on me being a director. I don't dislike directing, but your show can only be as good as your crew, and as of right now we don't have the best camera operators, so it frustrates me. I have to tell them the same things over and over - it is really truly unbelievable that nothing sticks. Maybe I am missing something, but I can't understand why I have to tell a person everytime to focus their shot; i.e. don't expect me to take a blurry shot. Or to frame up their shot correctly - i.e please don't chop off people's heads - or leave too much headspace at the top of the shot. Basic camera stuff.

I am hoping it will get better - I just need to get back into the groove. Mainly I just want to have a good show without developing a migraine or cursing at church.

Peas and Carrots

We get along like peas and carrots. I love my sugar bear. Most of the time, I am the one buggin out. That whole "M" thing, eh I don't know how I feel about it. I think because I know so many people who have been married and divorced, I am just not too excited about it. I do want a ring though :) and I actually don't mind buying one for myself (after the house of course)

You know we all have little things that drives other people crazy, my biggest issue with him is that he doesn't know how to screw...the cap back onto the toothpaste. I demonstrated the action so he can see how it's done, but it still seems to be a daunting undertaking for him. I wonder if this trait will transfer over to the orange juice, and the milk...etc. Please dear God, I hope he knows how to seal a resealable bag - that may push me over the edge!

The good news is - that is my biggest complaint - which in the grand scheme of things and looking back on relationships' past, that would have been the smallest among numerous far more egregious complaints. So life is good.

Do You Kiss Your Mama with that Mouth?

Today I did something that I am not proud of... For the first time in a long time, I flipped a bird at soemone while driving. It is not uncommon for me to get a little irritated when trying, but to actually stick up my middle finger is.... drastic. I can count on one hand the number of times in my life that I have done this and including today I would still have fingers left. At any rate, the driver was tailgating me and I just got really annoyed. I didn't intend on speeding up because there was a car in front of me about a car length ahead. This jerk pulls up on my bumper, so I gradually slow down. I couldn't get over, and I am not about to rear end the person in front of me. This guy wouldn't back off, instead he flashes he bright lights (it's broad daylight) and before I could stop it, my finger went up. I was livid, but as soon as I did it after that great moment of release, I felt ashamed. Not only was I coming back from church, I was singing gospel music and to make matters worse it's Mother's day. Mom would be proud....